Hello Dear Readers, here I am again 🙂
I have been wanting to write here, but some unforeseen issues developed and I was thrown off track. Life is such that you don’t know what suddenly lands on you. If its something good then its fantastic. But if its not so then its trouble especially for those who are very sensitive and are having mental issues. So this is why its important to continue your medication as long as you have to. So I thought I will enlighten some of you on this topic, and yet again this is how I will want to read, as when you are stressed you don’t and cant read too much of information. I have been pushed back into remembering certain things, that wont go away. This is the problem with mental illness. As until you get disturbed or shaken up, you don’t know what is hiding in your mind. Its just not always what people do, but mother nature also play havoc at times and they become traumatic events that leaves you highly stressed. Losing your possessions, loved ones or to have to face fear, sadness or pain !!!
Post-traumatic disorder happens, when something triggers you. “Trigger is anything that sets you off emotionally and activates your memories of your trauma. They are specific to each person how and what they have gone through” And you begin to re-experience these events that you have seen or experienced before. Each person goes through different experiences and each persons ability to deal with them differs according to their personality, their strengths.
I am not having nightmares. But certain memories which had been buried has come out again and they are tyring to push past my current state of mind. I am stable and doing everything quite well. But I am unable to concentrate on my studies, which is very annoying as I have been doing so with a lot of enthusiasm and energy. I have been battling with it from about four months, and was getting over when I was shaken again. But everything happens for a good reason, as I have not gone to the psychiatrist for almost one and a half years, I have thought of getting some counselling again. As each time you get shaken up you find out things about yourself and you need to make changes in order they do not happen again 🙂
Outside forces, people can disturb us. But then its only ourselves who have to battle it out and come out. So we need to set boundaries, in order to safeguard ourselves. Its not easy to come out of it once it sets in. With my own experiences I am saying that you need to go to a psychologist or a psychiatrist for help. And also keep up with your current medication if you are taking any. And look after your health, and try to keep to your normal routine as much as possible 🙂
Actually although I wanted to come and write here, I was having nausea and drowsiness as well. But thankfully they are getting less. Still I have not gone to the psychiatrist. So I will be updating all of you. And it will be interesting to follow my progress. And I will have to make a genuine effort as I have to write positive things here, about my becoming well isn’t it 🙂
This post will make you remember all about PTSD. As its difficult to silence the mind once its disturbed and the thoughts that keep on coming, restricts the body or us going about the usual ways and doing things in life. This is why anyone has to be very careful with their words and even dealing with others. As we don’t know what another person is going through although they are smiling from outside !!!
Follow my journey. In a way it will be very beneficial to all those who make use of what I write, as you are observing first hand what is going on with me and how I am managing and over coming. And I will 🙂
Thank you all for reading. Many Blessings of Love and Light from me ❤
Deepa Nilamani ❤