Healing from ~ Depression !

Hello To All My Dear Readers 🙂

I am re- doing some of the articles as with time, I am completely recovered from the 15 year long term depression, and been completely free of it almost 3 years up to ~ 9th October 2016. I have expanded my knowledge and gained more experiences in life. I have moved on tremendously from the past and am moving on still. Life is an ever changing process and the only constant is, Change 🙂
Some of the old articles are my past, and I want to write how I am, “Now” the present time. In short, one can say I am, “Re-writing my past again, in a positive way” Am I taking medication ? Yes basic dose of, preventive medication and going for regular check ups. I value my health very much, especially now as I know he difference between being sick and healthy. I have a healthy diet, proper exercises, rest and relaxation so that I am fit and healthy, both in body and mind. This is how I can write about depression after three years of being free from it 🙂

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After all these years, looking back, I have now realized that this is very true. Although at the time when you are going through all the stress and trauma you are not aware. Its not possible to Let Go or Leave stressful life situations just like that, especially if there are other lives depending on you, so very often one is almost forced to tolerate and bear up whether you like it or not, until such time that you can make those changes. Sometimes when the load of stress becomes too much, it can be a very small thing that breaks you finally. It’s said, “That it’s the last straw that breaks the camels back” It’s also like a volcano erupting. I have always thought of it this way. That everything keeps on collecting and collecting, and suddenly the mind blows !!!

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The sadness and grief eats into you, it goes deeper and stays longer than necessary so much so that  alters the chemical balance of your mind and body. This is something that many, Do Not Know ? Why ? How can anyone say, it’s all in the mind. Mental illnesses are just not in the mind its in the body too, as mind is in the body. How can people think that mind s elsewhere !!! When someone is physically ill then that person is ill. When its a mental illness, “Its only in the mind or there is no such thing as mental illness” This is something that some of the so called highly educated people think and say, and it is Time to change. This is why I am writing and doing this blog. Not to earn money, But to make people aware and enlighten the foolish !!! Sorry these are things that I am still going through and I am writing on, “Behalf of whole of Humanity” ❤

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I know depression. It makes one feel lethargic, sleepy, lack of appetite and no energy to do anything. It disrupts your day to day life and you cannot be or do things how you did before. All illnesses are psychosomatic ~ both mind and body. So when the mind gets affected, naturally when the health of the body goes down. I know what Bipolar disorder means, its under control now. I know what PTSD is too. It’s Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Remembering the past Trauma, “The Grief, Painful things one has gone through in life” And knowingly so many people in real life and even on the I net still stress and disturb people like us when all what we are trying to do is to HELP others. My Intentions are Purely to Help, to give Hope to Live, Not end their lives, so that they too can lift their heads up. Sometimes the world, the society can be a very cruel and a vicious place !!!

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Why we get sad or upset is because we are unable to be who we are and do the things that we like. Yes  we know we all have to abide by some form of discipline. We need to fit into family, work, society to some extent, as human beings we cannot just say and do things only how it suits us. But sometimes we are controlled too much. Instead of “adjusting” to fit in or live in harmony with another person or persons (it can be any life situation), sometimes we have to “completely change” from who we are. This is going completely against our natural way of life, our personality that we are born with. You can think of yourself wearing a dress or suit that is too tight, not to your color/style, or eating foods that is not to your taste. How do you feel ? Uncomfortable. This causes friction, stress. Which in turn makes you uneasy, unhappy, even angry having to do something you don’t like. Naturally. We are born to be who we are. For a short time yes, as sometimes we are compelled to do things we are not comfortable with, in certain situations. Long term ? No ? Why ? Because we are born to be free, and constantly that real person inside of us, “The real me” is struggling to come out. Again another reason why depression happens, when our spirits get dimmed. When we are not “Allowed to be who we are, to be able to live the life we are born to live 🙂

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This is where I always say it’s, “Guidance and Not control” Guidance is with loving kindness, and controlling is being selfish ~ where one is almost forced to fit in according to another person’s needs and desires. So in life doing things that is against your personality keeps on stressing you. Apparently there can be lack of understanding and love too as you don’t have to go through such difficult situations if there are people who really care, and see or know what is happening and help with the situation. This is of course, “Before depression sets in” Once it does of course it’s a different story !!!

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Yes many think its easy to say get out of it. But it is a, “Very Strong Force” it takes over you. It’s like a black mist that descends upon you from nowhere. For me it was not 24/7, but from time to time it used to raise its head up. There were times for days on end, I just couldn’t keep my head up, as if my neck had no strength. Where ever I went I used to put my head down and sleep. My head felt like a heavy stone. At one time I was about 30 kilos less than now, around 40 kilos, with hardly any appetite almost half of my weight. Now ? A bit over 😛 This is why I have posted my face, to see what I am now as proof, Happy Healthy and Smiling. I feel immensely Blessed 🙂

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When I think of these times, I shiver and its a wonder, a Miracle almost, how I got out of it. But I worked at it and still do. I become so overwhelmed with gratitude, and makes me to write. Those who have Not gone through a severe life crisis, cannot understand what it is to Bounce back and come back to your normal self. This is why I have Dedicated myself for service. “Pure service is Not expecting anything in return” Just by writing and giving my knowledge itself is a Joy. I cannot describe the satisfaction I get. Service is in my blood from generations. So much so I cannot mention anyone’s name. But this is, My knowledge from what I have gone through and what I am doing. My own venture, which I feel I am   Blessed to have got the opportunity to serve all people as much as possible 🙂

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You do need medication and counselling/therapy and what ever medical assistance to fight it. Just like all illnesses, mental or physical. But a major part of it is in your hands too. You need to work at it. You need to be persistent. If after 15 long years, I have defeated this force, “You Can too” We are all part of the universe and the universe gives us the Strength to be who we are. We need only to try ❤

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Thank you all for reading. I do hop you have found something new and useful or reminded or confirmed things you already knew. Its a very big relief to have written this and finished. As then “I have sort of Let Gone” that chapter. Been thinking of writing this for quite some time. Please do share or pass on for others who can make use of what I have written. It is useful as its first hand knowledge and tips. You can see me as I am now and I am living proof of overcoming depression and leading a completely normal life 🙂

Many Blessings of Love, Light and Healing Energies from me ❤

Thanking for the posts taken from the I net ❤

May God Bless You ❤

Deepa Nilamani 🙂

Hello To My Dear Readers 🙂

I have been thinking of writing this article for quite sometime, but somehow I never got to write until now. Its almost going to be a year since I started this blog and although there are many who follow this from Face Book there has been hardly any other bloggers connecting with me. One thing is I have not been connecting with other blogs myself, as well as when anything is new it takes time to grow !!!
So I have been really wanting to move further and feeling rather stuck not being able to progress to my satisfaction. Sometimes in life however much you try, things don’t happen exactly at the times you want. And its not always that we find people who can understand or advice how and when we want to. At these times, I turn to prayers or meditation 🙂

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Prayers and meditation are part of my life and I have now come to a stage that its like a need, almost like being in need of food. Whatever the time I listen my energy goes up, almost like charging a battery and I know when its enough too. As if over do it, I start to get an uncomfortable feeling, just like what you get when you are eating too much and I stop immediately !!!
I have finished my family duties and having stopped work, I have now dedicated myself fully to work towards the wellness and the welfare of mankind. So service is the Purpose of My Life now. I have always wanted to do service. But never thought this was how, as then there was no Inter net or never knew about mental illness !!!
See how life turns out to be. But I am extremely happy that this is what I am able to do. Giving out knowledge for free is the best thing one can ever do 🙂

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I have been praying for some time for more opportunities to spread out, and suddenly new doors open for you. I am unable to exactly say how, but for me as I keep on praying, suddenly things move, happen, at the most unexpected ways and in times. New chances come in. I have to mention the fact that, it has to be taken as however each person believes. It can be taken as God, The Higher Powers or The Laws of the Universe. As we all know, we are all under one set of rules. Only according to each person’s faith, the names and the faces are different 🙂

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I am a firm believer in the Strength and of the Healing Vibrations and Energy that comes through praying. As my healing from depression is greatly influenced by them. All prayers are with chosen good words, that give out good vibrations that gives good and healing energy. Its through extreme stress that most illnesses come in. Negative energy causes to deteriorate good health !!!

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So I know now how to listen to peaceful vibrations that helps to calm me down or boost my mood with prayers that has strong vibrations. This can be achieved with good classical music too. As music is one of the best ways of relaxation to get over stress and calm you down, and with strong beat to lift your mood. The difference with prayers is that, they are beyond relaxation. As with Faith they give me guidance when I need and, strength at times of difficult times, its almost like holding on to some unseen source, or the mast of a ship in troubled seas. But we cannot just be praying and sitting around. While praying we need to do our part too. Have Faith and work hard towards what we want in life too 🙂

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We all know that even during times of crisis of others, people all over the world come together and pray for those affected. For sicknesses, for those who died and got wounded, and for peace. Recently I was challenged on health matters as then, I was asked, why should there be doctors if we can heal ourselves by praying. As I said we do not sit at home and wait for cures, we need to go for medical help too when its needed. Prayers are an additional boost as well as they help to keep you going. As we need to have Hope for anything in life. Faith in prayers is something that gives us that Hope. And not only for others, but something happens inside of us too. Also we hear ever so often of many illnesses being healed with the powers of prayers. I too have had this experience for someone in the family and myself and I believe in this situation it was a test of my faith. As I stood strong and held on to my faith and to the beliefs in all what I am doing 🙂

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I believe most people do some kind of praying from what ever religion they belong to. I am not going to tell anyone to do anything, but If any one of you do not, or not done so far you can try at times you feel you need some extra energy or strength, or meditating to calm yourself. Regarding myself, I have been taught from small days and been exposed to many religious activities according to our culture. As human beings none of are perfect and during our journey of growing up and then even up to our last breath, religion and prayers offer us, guidance, strength and above all peace at heart. The ultimate goal in our lives isn’t it 🙂

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I hope you have got some insight of the values and the powers of prayers and meditation for us as human beings. So far if any of you have not known I believe you have got some understanding ? Some belief  ? What ever it is, this is how I think and do, and they have helped me immensely on my journey of healing and guided me and still being guided on the path I am going on 🙂

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Thank you for reading. I hope you enjoyed reading the article and received some new knowledge, inspiration and/or guidance from it. You are welcome to share it, and if there are others who can benefit please pass this on ❤

Many Blessings of Love, Light and Healing Energies to All ❤

Thanking for the posts taken from the I net ❤

May God Bless You ❤

Deepa Nilamani 🙂